An Adults Views

When I consider how different my adult dating life has been with my adolescent dating, it is quite amusing or at least very obviously 'evolved'. At least that's my personal opinion. Perhaps outsiders would consider me a dating infant, and I am just fooling myself thinking I am a good partner or sophisticated. Regardless, I remember being a fumbling bumbling idiot on most of my so-called dates as a teenager and even in my early adult dating age. Basically, once I made it past my mid twenties I seemed to have gotten the hang of the whole ritual a bit better. I say this due to the fact that I was much more comfortable with myself, I had a much better time on the dates, and the women I was with also seemed to enjoy themselves much more than I had previously recalled. I knew I had passed into what I would later regard as my adult dating age, when I felt as if myself and a woman had fallen in love. I suppose that this can happen to someone as a younger person, although it didn't happen to me that way and I have always equated adult dating with the month that I fell in love with Sandra.

She was perfect in my eyes and it seemed that I was perfect in hers. It was the first time either of us had spent any time with another person which seemed more than just a fling. She had had other 'relationships' as had I, but neither of us had ever connected with another human being quite like this. Yes, we were in love in the truest sense of the word and quite happy together as a result. We spent 8 years together, which I can say with much confidence were the best years of my life so far. If it gets better than that and I actually get to experience it, then I will die a happy death. I still may die happy just remembering her long flowing curls, unbeatable smile, and unmatched aroma. She was a dream come true, and now she is merely a dream. I hate to recall why we are not together, because it was entirely my fault and I hate myself for it. I lost her trust because I thought that perhaps there was something better out there, and I decided I wanted to see other people just as an experiment. I was unfortunately very wrong, and that was still the worst decision I have ever made in my life.